Everything Hit at Once… and I Nearly Broke

This week has been one of those where everything comes to fruition at once. Bad planning? Maybe. But honestly, it nearly knocked me clean off my feet and straight into a meltdown. It was too much, all at once, and it reminded me very quickly how my brain works when it’s overloaded.

I’ve always known my brain works differently. I see patterns, gaps, opportunities that other people just don’t clock. For years I was told to make up my mind, stick to one thing, stop changing my mind. Thankfully, I’m stubborn as fuck and never listened. Because this week proved exactly why I shouldn’t. It also reminded me that those voices still exist, still lingering, still ready to pipe up when things get busy. And I had to actively shut all of that out to get through what needed to be done without dropping the ball.

A huge part of this week has been the birth of The Pink Gorilla Collective. This came off the back of working with clients on Access to Work grants and realising just how many people are sitting on brilliant ideas but are either blocked by lack of funding or held back because they’ve been made to feel unreliable or unfocused. Usually just because they think differently, move differently, or don’t follow a straight line. I see that so clearly because I am that person. And when that kind of brain if understood and used properly, it’s not a weakness, it’s a superpower.

Bringing Steph into this has just confirmed everything for me. We first met back in 2016 and to now be building something together feels like one of those full circle moments. She’s an absolute powerhouse and together, I genuinely think we’re going to fly. Remember this blog.

It’s also made me reflect on why I do things like The Creative Confidence Hour. Every single person I’ve worked with has come away feeling clearer, more confident, full of ideas again. Not because I’ve given them something magical, but because I’ve helped them clear out the noise. The doubt, the outside opinions, the “you should be doing this instead” voices that slowly chip away at people. Life is short. Way too short to be wasting time and energy listening to people who don’t get you, also if you never try you’ll never know. The fear of regret weighs more than failing. Just a little reminder there lol.

That said, this week did push me. Because as much as I understand how my brain works, I also know that when too much lands at once, burnout isn’t far behind. And right now, there’s no backup. It’s just me. But interestingly, as I sit here writing this, I’m realising that might actually be the easiest position I’ve ever been in. No one else to bloody manage, no one else to carry. Just me, doing what I do best.

So what’s the point of all this? I think it’s this. You’re not too much. You’re not scattered. You’re not unfocused. You’re probably just wired differently (hate even typing that because we might be wired correctly and everyone else is different) And instead of trying to fix that or squeeze yourself into someone else’s idea of how things should be done, you need to learn how to use it. Protect it. And be very, very selective about who you let into your space when things start building.

Because when it all comes together, and it will, you need the right energy around you to handle it.

Fuck it and do the thing this week.